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From Distance to His Unfailing Love
by Sourabhi Halder
This journey is still unfolding!
The most valuable lesson I learned from life is that everything changes. It’s only the Word of God that never changes!
I was born in a Hindu family with zero connection to the Lord. I studied in a convent missionary school for some time, and it was there that I first heard about the Lord. Even then, I never knew why Jesus Christ died. I remember that when I was 11 years old, we were shown a movie about Jesus, and that’s where the gospel was shared with me for the first time. Even though I was sad about Jesus dying, I did not understand through that movie that He died for us. I may not remember any part of that movie today, but I know this: Through it, a seed was sown in my heart.
That was my first introduction to the Lord. And although I did not receive Him then, the Lord took that step in introducing who He is.
That was my last year at that school, and I moved to another school that was not Christian-centric.
Many times in life, we feel like we’ve missed our last chance and wonder if it will ever happen again. But the Lord is patient. He never gives up on us.
Then again, at the age of 20, I was introduced to the gospel by a born-again believer in my college. He shared a Bible with me, but I never read it.
I am sure that by now, if I were in the Lord’s place, I would have lost patience. I would have completely given up, thinking, “There’s no way this is possible anymore.” But the Lord did not give up on me. Instead, that moment became His second step toward me, gently reintroducing Himself to my heart.
The person who shared the gospel was there only briefly. He left college and went to Bible college after that. Today, I am in touch with him, and we speak occasionally.
Then again, at the age of 24, I was given a love story book called A Walk to Remember by a colleague. As I read that book, I read 1 Corinthians 13:4–8 in it for the very first time. Those words nudged me for some time, and I wondered if such love existed.
Today, I know that the Lord knocked at the door of my heart. Though I didn’t open it immediately, I was standing on the other end, pondering who was knocking. Many incidents in my life had hardened my heart. But that nudge did create a hope for my heart to soften.
And that was the beginning of my journey, a journey of seeking that kind of love. But if I’m honest, I never expected that this search for love would lead me to Jesus. I thought I was searching for a person, someone I could hold on to, someone I could spend my entire life with, someone who would never leave
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I didn’t realize that behind this longing was a deeper need, a need only He could fulfill.
What I was truly searching for was not just human love, but divine love.
As it is written in Jeremiah 29:13 (NKJV), “And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.”
I sought the Lord, and He answered me. The following year, I received the gospel shared by a colleague at my workplace and accepted Jesus as my personal Savior.
The story doesn’t end there, though.
Initially, I was very happy to receive Jesus into my life. But slowly and gradually, things started becoming ritualistic. I became lukewarm and had no relationship with the Lord.
I had reached a point where I was completely fed up. Nothing was falling into place the way I had hoped, and my heart was filled with questions and disappointment. It was in that broken and searching state that I was once again led to 1 Corinthians 13:4–8.
It says, “Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away” (NKJV).
And through those words, His love drew me back once again. I began seeking Jesus Christ all over again. And guess what, it was again a different experience. He was not revealing Himself in the way I expected. His ways were quieter, deeper, and more personal. He was no longer just someone I had heard or read about.
At age 34, from not knowing to being lukewarm in faith, I started becoming a woman after God’s own heart.
Today, at age 40, He is becoming someone I am beginning to know.
The journey is not over, and I am learning that He is a promise keeper. His love will never fail me, and He will keep drawing me back toward Him. Hallelujah!
Sourabhi, a former analytics professional from India, was born into a Hindu family and accepted Jesus in 2011. Now a freelance Christian blogger on Substack, she shares Spirit-led reflections. Through her YouTube channel, Instagram, and Facebook pages, she posts Scripture-based reels that encourage others to walk in Christ’s abundant life daily.
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